For the past week I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m built for a relationship. If I have the capacity for a relationship. To be devoted to someone, solely, purposefully. That someone could do the same for me. If I WANT someone to do the same for me. It’s such a strange concept but it’s so fascinating to me at the same time because I fall in love with the idea of it.
I always fall in love with ideas. Concepts. Maybe it’s the designer in me.
I used to think that I fell in love with people, that it was so easy for me to fall in love because that’s how I was but I never really fell in love, I just became infatuated. Not even with the people, themselves but the idea of them. What we could be, the things we would do, how stupidly cute we could be. I guess that makes me an idealist.